Always a Beginning, Never an Ending

I can't believe it's been almost a month since I've posted anything on here! And I can't believe summer is coming to a close. I love this time of the year. I love getting new planners and filling them up on the first day of school with my exam schedule as well as my schedule for social events and football games.  New beginnings are just around the corner.

I am sad that my time in Baton Rouge is coming to a close however the beginning ahead of me is an exciting one. I have just been reflecting over the past three months these past few days and coming to realize just how much God has changed my heart this summer in so many ways but one way is definitely in my approach to the future.

I am facing my senior year of college. This is very scary because I'm realizing several things:
1. I MUST be getting old because time seems to be slipping through my fingers more and more quickly as the days pass...I feel like I just started college. Because of speed that time has been going I want to live fully in each moment and grab hold of what's going on right here. right now. in the present.

2. The more I think I know the more I realize how little I actually know. I think I know what I want and that I know what I want to do and where I'm going but then I take a step back and release the tight grasp I have on my own plans and realize I have no idea. At the beginning of the summer I thought that living in Louisiana would give me clarity as to where I wanted to settle after I graduate. It's done the opposite. If anything, being here this summer has opened my eyes to a myriad of opportunities I have once I graduate. This I know though....

3. I DO want to settle somewhere. I've come to learn about myself that I am an investor. I love investing in people and pouring into relationships and walking through life with others. I love that God has called us live in community with each other and to bear our burdens with one another and also in that sharing in joy. My heartbeat is very much that of wanting to see people grow in deeper intimacy with the Lord and that kind of relationship doesn't happen overnight. I want to settle down somewhere, get rooted in a community and grow. Where that community is, I have no idea. It could be Austin, Fort Worth, Baton Rouge or someplace that hasn't even crossed my radar yet!

4. Because I DO want to settle some place and in light of God just really teaching me this summer that wherever He is, I am home and so I will go where He leads because I know His goodness and faithfulness go with Him always. But this year is a HUGE year for God and I. I am excited to see what God does in this coming year. I can't wait for things to unravel and for His direction to be made more clear. I am having to learn to trust that right now, in this very moment, He is preparing a place for me after I graduate, that He is preparing a home for me. I am having to trust and be okay that I don't know where I will end up now but things WILL fall into place.


The close of a season brings about a new one. One that promises the opportunity to learn and grow. Nothing is guaranteed except that God is at work, He is up to something. Always is. And He will continue to be working and allowing things to unfold and as always, providing all that is needed in any given moment.

I am excited...so very excited about the challenges, joys, adventures, laughter, tears, late nights, early mornings, unexpected bumps, and growth that lie ahead.

I am looking forward to becoming more
Recklessly Abandoned

"Commit to the LORD whatever you do, 
       and your plans will succeed" Proverbs 16:3